Heading out now.

My only goal today is to go the gym. Z hasn't been to daycare in about three months. She needs to have some socialization and I need to up my heart rate. I think we both have anxiety about it. Jason tried to take her a few weeks ago and she flipped her lid. He took her home without working out. Today, I've been talking to her about it all day..."you are going to see your friends today!" To encourage myself to go, I've downloaded Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. I need to get caught up in a book to motivate the cold drive and even colder walk to the gym doors. I haven't gone since Bill and Lynn died. It's almost as if I've decided to start back to my life again. I need to start having a regimen again. I packed the diaper bag (I haven't had one in a long time) and made a date with a fellow mom in order to keep myself honest. Does this seem like a lot of mental effort to you?? Me, too.

I'm excited to listen to the book. I'm excited to get Z back into a routine. I'm excited to feel good about working out again.

Tomorrow night I got a sitter. This is great news. J and I will go see a movie!! Now...which? This is the big question. There are a lot out there to see. I'm thinking it will be The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I read the book and saw the Swedish film. It won't be Jason's type of film, but he'll go. He's still scarred from my decision to go see Hugo--which is EXCELLENT! He fell asleep and thought it was horribly slow--but this is only to the untrained eye. ha! It's a great movie and I recommend it wholeheartedly.

Here's to getting back to a routine.