at 12:03pm

I never quite get over the feeling of wanting to be someone else. Or rather, have a different look. I have an identity problem. I almost want to re-create myself with a certain haircut, hair color, funky clothes, eclectic decor--Will I ever get over this? I see a woman and think--there! THAT'S who I want to be! I've never been satisfied with the me that I am. I feel boring, simple and forgettable. Yet, I have a lot of friends...hmm. We all have demons. This is (one of) mine. This is my wish for myself over almost all others--to be happy with who I am, to feel content in my skin and know that I am the person I want to be. Until then, it's so tiresome to feel this way.