You Are Everything

If you don't listen to music, you are missing a part of your soul. That is exactly how I feel. Unlike books and movies, music triggers emotions that probably only smell can match. It serves as a transport. When I hear certain songs, my heart remembers too. It remembers if it was in pain, or if it was in love...if it was searching...or it ties it to a certain person, even if that person is you. This is one of the many songs that seems to practically knock me out when I listen to it.
I'm 14, a freshman in high school. I have no idea what is going on around me. I love my friends more than anything. I've found my niche--but I'm lonely. My best friend moved away and I miss feeling really understood by someone. When I was a kid travelling back and forth between Topeka and St. John, KS to visit my dad, I would lay in the backseat, in the dark, and watch the stars go by. My sister and my mom were in the front seats--I was alone...yet calm. I closed my eyes and listened to the sound of the engine...and for a moment, I was happy and safe. When this song came out, I felt that all over again. I heard it on my first visit to see Kortney. I couldn't wait to see her... to feel safe and understood again. During such a confusing time in my life, she was the closest thing to a life line that I had...still is.

Enjoy.

Sometimes I feel like I can't even sing
I'm very scared for this world
I'm very scared for me
Eviscerate your memory
Here's a scene
You're in the back seat laying down
The windows wrap around
To sound of the travel and the engine
All you hear is time stand still in travel
And feel such peace and absolute
The stillness still that doesn't end
But slowly drifts into sleep
The stars are the greatest thing you've ever seen
And they're there for you
For you alone you are the everything

I think about this world a lot and I cry
And I've seen the films and the eyes
But I'm in this kitchen
Everything is beautiful
And she is so beautiful
She is so young and old
I look at her and I see the beauty
Of the light of music
The voices talking somewhere in the house
Late spring and you're drifting off to sleep
With your teeth in your mouth
You are here with me
You are here with me
You have been here and you are everything

Sometimes I feel like I can't even sing
I'm very scared for this world
I'm very scared for me
Eviscerate your memory
Here's a scene
You're in the back seat laying down
The windows wrap around
To sound of the travel and the engine
All you hear is time stand still in travel
And feel such peace and absolute
The stillness still that doesn't end
But slowly drifts into sleep
The greatest thing you've ever seen
And they're there for you
For you alone you are the everything
For you alone you are the everything