change

i thrive on change. i changed the look of the blog...again. it's like rearranging a room and feeling like you have a brand new place to explore. i used to do it all the time as a kid. i rearranged my room to make it seem like all was different. i kept moving for a change as well. it's addicting. i love where i live now, but i would move again. now, with z, it's hard. it wouldn't be fair to her. we have to keep her grounded. but, i daydream. i want to live in london. i've always wanted to live there...or somewhere in scotland. that was my daydreamed future as a kid. not as a wife. not as a stay at home mommy. i lived abroad. i was far away...and alone. sounds awful, doesn't it? london probably isn't in my future as a home, but i want to visit it again.
i love new beginnings. i love the unexplored. again, ode to a grecian urn is my life. keats died so young...but he really connected to something there.
if you're out there reading this and you are at a place in your life where you're restarting or in a new place in life...RELISH it. it can be scary, yes...but it can also bring you new life.