Well, not that we have anywhere to go, but the snow is pretty...it's blowing though, could be tough to travel in. Z is swinging and cooing currently. Very cute. Our nights have been less than desirable, but not horrible. I'm feeling a little wimpy compared to other moms. Some seem to really do well, or at least better than me with the exhaustion thing. I'm not quite used to it yet. I get headaches and my bones just ache when I don't have enough sleep. Plus, I get a little overly emotional and psycho. I've started having jealousy dreams about Jason. This makes me feel REALLY horrible. I'm thinking it's triggered by Z and his complete adoration of her and our complete lack of having any alone time. I miss him...but enjoy watching him as a dad. I miss being a couple and have been thinking back to the Chicago times. Not that I'd ever not want Z here, just miss her dad...miss us being cute and mushy and sexy. His sexiness has been amplified with the dad thing. My God. Plus, he just always looks good....ok, sorry, I'm a little lonely. He leaves for CA on Monday and so we won't be spending my bday together. That sucks. But, we have the weekend. He is very conscious of the fact he'll be gone and is going to surprise me with a weekend somewhere...hmmm.
I guess it's a good sign that I still lust after my husband...but man, Z needs to sleep through the night!! (Sorry if this is TMI Jen...hehehe)
2 comments:
Great picture. Your man does look hot. Hang in there. Soon you will feel like a hot mama again...just in a new way.
Ha! No, it's fine (if you meant me!)
On the lack of sleep thing -- your body is still healing. You NEED sleep for healing and milk production. Don't feel wimpy!
I hate that Jason will be gone for your birthday. That really sucks.
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