Roar

I've been watching a new show on BRAVO! Kell on Earth. I love it.

http://www.bravotv.com/kell-on-earth

It's not for everyone, but it's for me. I have a real thing about loving bitches in control. This started with my fascination of Madonna in Truth or Dare. I loved how she was in complete control. I have an obsession with women control freaks--but good ones. I can do without the evil. Flipping Out is also on BRAVO! and I love it, too. He's fabulously bitchy and wonderful to watch.

http://www.bravotv.com/flipping-out

If you haven't seen either of these shows, you should at least check them out one time. I am drawn to certain personalities that scare me. I wish I was more like them. So in control, so kick ass, so funny and bitchy. I'd love to be around them. YET another one is Rachel Zoe.

http://www.bravotv.com/the-rachel-zoe-project

She's not as kick ass as the others, but something about her reminds me of a friend of mine, so I watch it because I miss her so.

I want to be kick ass. I want Z to be a strong woman. I want her not to be a victim. I was a victim for YEARS and it REALLY pisses me off!!!! No more. Jason comments a lot about how different I am from 5 years ago. Sadly, my personality has morphed into a somewhat compulsive cleaner. That's annoying, I know. I was such a slob for so long though...ugh.

I'm out her in NY all alone sometimes. I'm not around women and I lose my edge. Women are strong, fierce and loving creatures. I love being one. I need to find some sort of woman's group similar to the one I found in Cincinnati. They were writers. All older than me. I also love older women...I need them to look up to. I want to learn from them. I love books about women, by women and for women. If you have any suggestions for a good read, let me know.