Vain

Again with the drip, drip, drip. At least it's outside this time. We're suppose to have 50 degree weather today. I expect flooding down our street. Not really, but the snow is piled up to 7 feet in some places. Crazy.

I happened to catch a glimpse of my body in the mirror last night. Granted, it was bad lighting, but I couldn't sleep afterward. I'm 36 and I admit, I have a body issue. I feel that I should look like I did at 25. No, it's not going to happen. Unless your Jennifer Aniston. My God. So, today I spent all morning doing exercises. We're going to the gym a few times a week--twice this week already. I have issues...and I've mentioned them before. I asked Jason if he'd rather be physically fit without trying or have 1 million dollars. He said the money. I said the body. What does that say about me?? I upped it to 10 Mil...but you also were 50 lbs overweight and could never lose it. He said he'd skip the money. Hmmmm. What if it were 20 lbs only? He said he'd probably do it.

We have strange conversations.